A Darker Day

Please remember this was written many years ago and only reflects a darker time in my life...

Too much time alone has broken my will,
Now my only thoughts are of myself to kill.
It's as if a curse or a spell has been cast on me,
And no matter what I do I can't break free.

Please don't think of me in a negative way,
No matter how it ended I began another day.
With an attitude so focused and new,
But in the end there was nothing I could do.

Once the mind takes over a broken heart,
It's a matter of time before we must part.
And although I struggle with what I will do,
To myself I must be true.

No longer motivated to work with no pay,
There's nothing left at the end of the day.
And debt and collections I now face,
No longer my head held high, a failure, a disgrace.

In time I hope you will see,
From my demons I must be free.
Memories of my past and mistakes I have made,
Trapped in my mind, like sun with no shade...