A Darker Day

Please remember this was written many years ago and only reflects a darker time in my life...

Too much time alone has broken my will,
Now my only thoughts are of myself to kill.
It's as if a curse or a spell has been cast on me,
And no matter what I do I can't break free.

Please don't think of me in a negative way,
No matter how it ended I began another day.
With an attitude so focused and new,
But in the end there was nothing I could do.

Once the mind takes over a broken heart,
It's a matter of time before we must part.
And although I struggle with what I will do,
To myself I must be true.

No longer motivated to work with no pay,
There's nothing left at the end of the day.
And debt and collections I now face,
No longer my head held high, a failure, a disgrace.

In time I hope you will see,
From my demons I must be free.
Memories of my past and mistakes I have made,
Trapped in my mind, like sun with no shade...

Learning to Forget

In Time we Learn to Forget,
In Time the Pain from Our Losses will Fade,
We will look at an Old  Photograph and remember Fondly.
In Time Our Lives will Fill with Other Losses,
In Time we will Gather and Reminisce,
A Memory will go from Laughter to Tears.
In Time we will sit Alone and Cry Harder than we did Today,
In Time We will Learn to Love More,
We will Learn Not to Take Life for Granted.
In Time we Will Hug each Other Tighter and find it Hard to say Goodbye,
In Time it will become our Time and Someone else will have to Learn to Forget.